NOW WERE SAYING BYE, BYE, BYE-

IVE LOST MY SENCE OF WHO I AM.
i hate on others, for always wanting something better, or trying too hard.
well what am i doing? I don't even recognise my own personality anymore, my sence of humor conform's too others.. which i dont like to admit; I am currently trying far too hard for someone, who doesn't even appreciate, and will never even notice me. I'm no different than everyone else, and everyone has proved me wrong, and im just coming too realize, how unhappy i am. Im currently, always looking for something better, newsflash chels; this is all im getting. "they see right through me"
I feel like no one special lately, no one wanted in any way.. like a bother.
I love my friends, but i take them for granted, i want a boyfriend.. but im sick of looking for one.
i think it concludes too BEING MYSELF.

STOP CONFORMING.
even I, wouldnt see a need too meet myself.
because im not a true person, not truthful, or real.
i want MY personality back, i want too be happy, all the time. i just want too be..


me!

I WAS ALL ALONE, YOU WERE ALL I HAD-

I dont understand, why people always jump too such drastic assumptions. The things that wont matter in five minutes, are the things we get most flustered about. The people who will ALWAYS be around are the ones you treat the worst, for no reason. Except for the simple fact that they will always be around, you just feel the need too test them. Giving into the stupidest little fights, might make someones day. I'm learning too stop being so stubborn, and too stop testing the people i truely love. I make mistakes, and so do you.. i understand now. I see how sad it is too loose friendships with others as well, you won't loose the ones your closest with, you will just hurt them, and there is NO need for that. I'm sorry too every friend, i have ever upset, by just being cruel. I'm so sorry.
I do sometimes wonder where i would be today, if i hadn't lost all of my old friendships, and sometimes when i feel so alone, all i want is those friendships back.
I dont regret them though, i dont mind where i am today at all. My friends that are here, now, and always have been, are something i wouldnt give up for the entire world, and then some.
Jaymie, Sarah, and Chelsea..
you mean everything too me, and i love you so much.