THIS IS WHERE- WE BOTH GIVE UP?..

I miss you, so much than you could ever even understand. Too use the cliche term of being 'replaced' doesn't even begin too describe the feeling i have, knowing that nothing will ever be the same. I used too feel as if we were the same person, with the same interests, same tastes, in music, clothes, food, friends. But time changes everything, you might never even read this. But you once sent me a text saying, "What ever happened to we'll be best friends forever and high school will never distance or ruin our friendship, guess what it did." Its more than just partly my fault, i will take all the blame. You know how everyone has something that they wish they could 'go back and change,' well your that thing, i would do anything too have our old friendship back. ANYTHING. you mean everything too me, and you always will. I understand people have too move on, or find other things, but, there's no way that i could ever forget you. I think i need you more than air. You taught me, what a true friend is, you showed me how too be a good friend, and how much i needed others. I dont know where i would be today, if i never had met you. your an amazing person, I wish you more than the best in the future, and i hope you fulfill all of your dreams, your so much better than those other catty, snobby girls. I love you, for absolutly ever. "I'D SPEND EVERY MOMENT I HAD WITH YOU," cause your my bestfriend, ever...




always.
"SO JUST BE HERE NOW,"
ill be here forever.

THINGS AREN'T ALWAYS AS THEY SEEM-

I understand now, no ones perfect. I understand now, you are trying just as hard to understand me, as i am too understand you. I want too be more forgiving, i want to be better understood. I want too be more open too others. But as always, you dont always get what you want. I'm realizing now, that the friends i have, aren't going anywhere. it really has taken me this long too realize that. but now that i know it, i have too remember, i cant take you for advantage, because ill always be here too. If i dont want too be hurt, than i wont hurt you. Karma comes back around, always. Remember the little things, hope for the best, dont live in the past or the future, dont over think everything. Be yourself, who cares if a select few don't like who that person is. i promise you, you dont need them. Trust me, ive spent enough time, wanting to be someone else, trying too hard to hold onto someone that doesnt care, and now that im over those phases, im so much better off. I love the people ive chosen too hold onto, and the ones who have chose too hold onto me. Sometimes, i under-estimate others, which i know is wrong, because i dont EVER like being under-estimated myself. But it happens, to everyone, life goes on. Don't hold stupid grudges for the moment, that wont matter in five minutes, dont get mad abuot the STUPIDEST things, when even you know that your acting rediculous. think before you speak, because what you might mean too say, might come out differently than you hoped. Dont take the ones who care a rediculous amount for granted, because for all you know, you might never find any better. Dont loose the ones that matter most, dont bother fighting with them, just too make sure they will stick around, because they will. dont waste yout time testing them, and hurting them. "THIS MAY BE THE BEST- NOT TOO MENTION THE WORST IDEA THAT I HAVE EVER HAD."

DROP EVERYTHING- FORGET EACHOTHERS NAMES

I understand where people are coming from, when they say that they think i dont care enough.
But thats really not it, at all. i'm just really bad at showing how much i care, because it wont get me anywhere.
I know that i need my friends, all of them. But I think im just scared to show that, because in the end, i know that i will be the one who gets hurt.
I'm sorry for ruining my most important friendships, with the most important people i have ever met.
As we grow older, we change, more and more each day. The problem is that we dont notice it until its too late, to change back, to the person that was once loved. and appreciated.
Were getting older, things are changing, memories are being made every single second.
Dont take the moments that you have for granted, because sooner or later, your friends will leave you, and you might be left.. with nothing at all.
Take life for all its worth,
"ITS BEEN SO LONG IT SEEMS- INTENSE NIGHTLY DREAMS- YOU CANT ESCAPE THESE MEMORIES."